I didn't sleep the whole night.
My eyes are horrible. Sigh..

I'm not gonna give up cause my hearts tells me so. I know I'm stubborn not to heed my friend's advice but I wanna do nothing but to follow my heart now. I know it's silly but that's the only thing I wanna do now. I wanna see you smile, I want those morning calls again, I want those long talks, I want you to text me again asking me why didn't I reply, I want meetups at n2 before scohol, I want you to treat me how you used to.
Everything's changing but I can't do anything but to wait for you to change back..
I'm willing to cause I really really hate you. Really do.

Alju Granny passed away on wed. :/
Pcb test on thurs was weehoo fun. Lunch with classmates and met up with Rach after that.
Then back to class, blahblah.

Went to Aidan's house after school, Phoebe and Shaakir came.
Went carpark to met up with the rest and headed to Kallang. Shaakir tompang me with his Aprilia. Damn shiok. :) I kept on tickling his belly lolll.
Went Mt Faber after that, I got shocked when we were heading down. He purposely did something which made me O.O like a retard. Lol.
Headed home after that, was fun. :)

Met up with Rach after school on Friday again, lepakkkk at my school till 3, ahhaha thanks for accompanying me. :)

Yesterday I spent 10 to 5 packing up my room to keep myself occupied.
Hougang at night again.

Sup, LOL.

It has been so long since I last updated! Busy with school, work and blah shitz.
Anyway, last thurs, I met up with Diana, Rach & Phoebe!
Headed to Rach's house for dinner and went to her room to partyyy.
Kidz, we started being vain. I help D & R trim their brows! Hahaha damn fun. :)
Then played with makeups and all and headed home alr.

Edev lab test on friday was easy. I'm gonna score! :)
I met up with Ivan & Tay after that.
Went library and did, nothing.
But talk cock and laugh and took pictures and yada doodle.

I know it's stupid but we had a really good laugh @ all these shits. Lol.

Ivan's mouth, my teeth, and Tay's face so chio. :B



Lol @ Tay's neck HAHHA. Ivan's hair looks like a pineapple here.

Met P and headed to Shawn's house for PS3, I did nothing anyway.
His granny was horrible. Made me talk back to her the 1st day I met her. -.-

Saturday, went town with my relatives. Saw Mar again! Hahaha.
Town is boring as usual, lol.

I went msia with my relatives on Sun!
Damn fun hahaha, Kian and Kaili was being damn irritating. Lol.
Just went some random temple and touch idk what fish, damn big.

Then went to shop and yada, the mall is damn sian.
Dinner and then slept through the 3 hours ride home.

Dfund quiz and com prog lab test today. Everyone says dfund is easy but I don't know any shit.
Comprog was nerve wreaking! Last question was zzzzz. :(
Headed to bikini bottom after that and went to work.
Aidan & Shaakir came down after my work, went Simpang for supper and home. :)

School again tomorrow argh. Bye.

You know a point of time when you really really need someone so badly that just a call and listening to their voice makes you feel that everything is gonna be fine cause they're really important to you and just simple words they say makes you smile?
Where are you when I need you?
What I want is you to call me and talk to me till I cool down.
It's not bout controlling. If you can talk to me when you're out I don't mind.
You rather slack with your friends, have fun and all when I'm all alone at home crying like a bitch.
And asking me what is wrong with me asking you to get back home.
Just because your friend said "Don't let a girl control you."
Yeah I heard it. Now I know where I stand in your heart. I guess I'm just not that important.

Everytime when you have family matters I'm always there.
What bout you?

Luvvv my nails hehehhe.

Didn't paint em since idk when haha. About a month? And it feels weird cause it looks simple.
Nails are meant to be painted! Hahaha.
But it was yellowish and I buff till my nails went soooo thin and crack like mad and it was all ewwwww that's why I left then naked.
Now it's back yay. P doesn't like multiple colours but 1 colour is so boring.
That's why there's 2 diff colours, I wanted to do 5 different colours but LOL nvm.

Work today was damn tiring.
Yesterday & today was soooo torturing cause of some reasons. Persevere qy!

I had talks with Cherine @ the library again. Omg i love talking to her. Lol.
Make up session was fun too.

Jap was fun, hhahaha. I removed my extension today! Diana still has it on, kudos to her. Lol.
The colour change from Blur to Purple to Pink. The pink is super striking and ahlian. -_-

PCB tmr @ 9am omg I haven't solder the shitz yet. :(
Talking to D and R now both bitches have no school. Nabei.
Tmr's gonna be a longggg day. Ciao!

Anyway Happy 25th Birthday Bro. :)

Sup!

Hahaha hello people! School today was pretty boring.
Last minute classmate told me there's maths quiz today, I didn't even know.
Quickly revise and the quiz was alright, last question 100% wrong but still can pass I guess? Hahaha.

I went to Tmall with Cherine, walk around and had ice cream @ Macs!
Sat down and had heart to heart talks. I'm glad I told her almost everything cause she's much matured and she knows what to do.
She says she doesn't wanna say make comments on anything. My mind's in a whirl pool now, but I'll just follow my heart. :)

Mummy got herself an iPhone, I hope she doesn't sell it again this time. Lol.
iPhone 4G is coming out this year and I don't feel like getting the 3Gs already. Haha I'm so fickle minded!

School till 5 tmr and work! Argh. Bye.

Smile as much as you can cuz you'll never know whose in love with your smile. :)

Malaysia trip was kinda boring, didn't get any nice stuff.
Found the shop that sells the checks out it's OOS alr. Urgh irritating.

I find myself really fat all of a sudden, as in like fucking fat like 100kgs! I need to lose weight. Fucking determined now. I hope this will last. Am gonna starve till I really cannot take it. Then I'll munch abit. I hope I can do it. Pleaseeee.

Anyway, Happy 15th birthday to my desrest sis. Hope you can cope well in your new subjects in school alright! Thanks for being always there for me although you can't help much cause you've never been through those stuffs I did but you still tried to comfort me and all. I love you really much, as always. :)

Here's a quote which I find it meaningful.
"When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you’re the one smiling and everyone around you is crying."

K I'm gonna go wash up now. School tomorrow zzzzzzz. Nighty!

On the phone with P now. I'm going msia tmr! Yay hehehe.
Anyway laoniang is EFFING HAPPY! Cause her dota has revived. Hahaha.
I'm gonna get l4d2 next. Even Rach knows how to play, I'm sucha blockhead!

Anyway yesterday was awesomeee.
I went out for a photography outing with Aidan & Phoebe.
She brought her DSLR along cause of me, thanks babe!
It was really really fun taking pictures where ever I go.

Went penin to get my watch. Then off to town.
Phoebe was like a mad woman @ Taka, bought Coach and Marc Jacobs. Siao label kia. Lol.
We're gonna get Mahattan Portage bags by the end of next month. Wee-u-weet. :>

Went Cine and each of us got a Praise tee.
Aidan was asking me to get it for like idk how many times. Lol.
He got his mad chio boat shoes. I told you that you can find nicer ones rightt!
Thank me thank me! Hahaha. The salesgirl was really really pretty. :)

Met up with Ken, Potential and his friend. Saw Maricia outside Cine! Hahaha miss herrr, and Wen. Meet up soon please!

Dinner @ Pasta mania, then walk around and headed back to Pasir Ris, then Hougang as usual, and homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

K off for now. :) Pool today was really fun. I was being controlled by Kel. LOL joke.
Bai.

:)

Overdue pictures, since I'm free now I shall upload them. :D

SUP

My face is frigging fat. :(



Awesome Pauline :)



Oovoo few days back with Aidan, Chan & Diana. My name should be in B. That'll make the 4 of us A, B, C & D. K lame.











Hahahhaa cute.

Kay baiiiiiii.

Life's pretty boring now, I need to go back to my usual self.
I wanna laugh everyday @ stupid stuffs, time passes faster and I spend everyday with a smile.

Feeling damn weird now. What's happening.
Everything's changing, I can feel it.
I seriously don't think I deserved to be treated this way..
Sigh what going on again.

:)

K time to blog bout the weekend!
Friday, headed to Dhouby Ghaut, met up with the guys and headed to Just Acia for dinner.
Went over to Cathay for movie, 12 of us! Hahaha.
Headed home after that.

Saturday, class bbq! Reached around 5 and everything started alr.
STarted games, uno stacko, twister! HAHA damn fun and yada yada.
Play charades, humming and pictuika, relaly fun and my group won!
And I got the Chatterbox of the class prize. Lol.

Cake cutting and stuffs cause it's Aidan & Joel's birthday. :)
Everyhing was really fun, pictures are over @ Facebook. I'm lazy to upload, will do if I have the time.
Anders, Joel and Kenneth headed over to Hougang with me after that.
Pool and random ball stuffs LOL and they went back. Then I did usual stuffs and homeeee.

I went back to school today! Cab over right after my class. Hahaha.
Was sooo nice and everything, had lots of talks with the teachers! Hahaha.
Some of them cried and it's really very -_- I remembered when I got my results, I was crying like a bitch too. Lol.
Rachel didn't shed a tear, she got better results comapred to the previous one, haha I'm happy for her! CHINESE STILL B3 HAHA.

I met AMaran, Cheukman and Fat after that. Omg was having so much fun, I miss them alooooot. Fat became really skinny so Amaran & I was coming out with new nicknames for him. Hahahah. Amaran and Cm kept on asking me to scratch their back as usual. Lol. Miss those times. :)

I got emotional and all after that and yada. Sigh.
Went for work, Rach and Terence came down! Hahaha.
Thanks for those long talks, Qz too. Really appreciate it.
I'm sucha bitch sigh.
kthxbai

:)

The worst thing this weekend is the fight.
AND I CAN'T FIT INTO THAT FRIGGING SHIRT WHICH HAS NO M SIZE AVAILABLE _l_

Other than hat, I had an awesome weekend.
Friday was fun, saturday's class bbq was MAD FUN.
And today, I got my laptop lcd screen replaced(FINALLY)!
After letting it rot for 6 months.

I spend 300+ bucks today.
270 on the laptop & keyboard protector and other stuffs. T_T
I chose the most handsome guy to replace it HAHA.
He looks like Taufiq Batisah(spelling?)!
I saw Benjamin @ the other shop, the CSS contestant. He kept on denying that he's the one.
Damn funny. Lol.

Anyway good luck to everyone that's getting back O's tmr!

Especially this girl, I'm gonna hear good stuffs from her tmr . No more red paper k! Hahaha.

M gonna catch up with those games, I've like nothing to do everytime I on the computer that's why I don't use it often now.
I know I can blog but seriously blogging is boring shit, I won't waste alot of time on it unless I'm a blogger and I earn bucks from it but it's impossible lol so I wont.
Unlike some people, so free.. winks to D. HAHAHA.

I'm gna start l4d/dota/whatever shit soon! :)

School tmr. See bai f school.

:)

January is the brokest month of all.
Brokest= qy being relaly broke. Lol!
So many people's birthday la!

I bought 4D ytd HAHA, 0220 ibet, first time I bought 4D myself and the number came out! But in the end never buy tio nabei, 25 bucks fly. 25 bucks only but still it's the winning that makes you shiok! :(

I just came back from horrible work, was mad busy and I slip and fell while rushing. My leg hit the wooden chair and it was fucking painful and I cried like mad.
Cheebu -_-

Btw after work was horrible shit, I cried really really hard after that phone call but I took my revenge just now HAHA! I just made P cried like mad hoho. We're equals now. Hehehe.

My leg is hurting like maddd. ZZZ and I see a veryvery ugly bruise. Am sad.

LZX changed his hairstyle! Tay when are you gonna change your hairstyle! LOL.

Anyway Happy birthday Kian on 3rd, Happy Birthday Kelvin on 6th, Happy Birthday Aidan for now! And Happy birthday Joel tmr! And Marcus is up there for a year alr, I really really hope that he's doing good up there. :)

2010

New year eve was an awesome day.
Lunch with P and caught Alvin & the Chipmunks 2. Theodore is MAD cute! Hahhaa.
Headed back and went Downtown with my relatives as usual.
Met Jesslyn & Vanessa there, saw Rachel and co!
Then I saw alot of familiar faces. Wilson kept on irritating me. And I went to hit Potential's chest the minute I saw him! HAHHAA.

Went to take neoprints with Jess, Rach & Van! Was mad fun haahha. Cause of the lil boy. Damn cute.







This is the way I used to take neos when I was an ah lian. Too used to it so I just kept on twisting like an ahlian LOL idk why! -_-
This post looks so.. secondary school-ish cause of the neoprints, no? Hahaha.

Anyway Jess and Van left. Went Summer breeze after countdown with Rach, Qz, Bear, Junyu, Terence and co.
Was perspiring like mad and they kept on snatching my fan away! Kaninaaaa.
Rach and me kept on laughing at random people on the dancefloor. Lol. Especially that old horny girl, which looks like Rach! Not her but another Rach, if you get what I mean. And she looks really old, haha . Hahaha.
Left after awhile cause of ahem reasons.
Stroll along the park and had talks with Rach. I love her. Really love her for being there for me all the time. :) Thanks babe.

Jerron called after that, asked him to tompang me back to downtown but I changed my mind right after he rushed to meet me! Hahahha damn funny.
Jerron and Terence accompanied me to wait for Mommy to fetch me home instead.

Thats how I spent it, haha. Everything wasn't planned, but turned out to be so fun. :)
Anyway I kinda miss M cause that thing happened to him on NYE. :(

Anyway goodbye horrible 2009, hello 2010. 2009 was the worst year of all, I've lost quite alot and cause of this I'm much stronger, and I'm glad I am. I've made enemies of course, haha who doesn't? Worst was her and yeah I still hate her fucking much. Nah I won't fake, I don't like you means I don't like you. I won't beat around the bush. You acted like a coward by getting back in blogging. I got your number and confronted you instead ha, I'm immature? Look who's talking. My selfishness killed it? Haha your bitchy-ness killed your friendship too, not killed but somehow? Cause it's for the time being I guess, no one can predict what's gonna happen in the future. Attention seeking bitch haha, I'm lame bitch? WOW I'm sorry I srsly don't think I am. :( I became scheming and vicious OMG WOW. I should lose some weight? Lol go fix your jaw please thank you. It's a torture to look at you/your pictures/ whenever you update your status at Facebook and your thumbnail sized pics SCARED THE F OUTTA ME & my friends :) Delete me off Facebook if possible thanks, I won't delete yours cause I don't wanna waste anymore time on you. Why am I blogging bout her again. Waste of space fuck.

Was really free during the break after O levels and I used free time to think over alot of stuff. I realised that I'm too much sometimes? Idk how to say but it's like. I need to take a very long time to get grudges away. That when I realised the way I treated D was too much. I told my bitches that I find myself really bad for bitching so much bout her and they went o.o hahhaa. And before poly life started she suddenly contact me back, we had a long talk and I'm glad everything is back to normal again. I still can't stop making fun of her stupidity anyway. Hahaha. She's busy working but calling me consistently asking me how are things, really appreciate it, meet up soon dear. :) I'm much more forgiving now! For people who deserves it at least, not for her, never. Cause she has a long jaw opps.

And I suddenly got really close to Rach all of a sudden after o levels idk why. Hahaha suddenly kept on going to her house and slack and doing stupid stuffs when I'm having my O lvl hols! She's always there for me through the whole of 2009, whenever I have a prob she's just a call away. We've never quarrelled before for the past 5 years, which is a miracle cause my character sucks and I always get into quarrels. I guess it's because she always let me have my ways, giving in to me and all. Thanks bestfriend. :)

I've got a long term part time job at FH thanks to Chan. Kinda like my 2nd home now. Even when I don't have work I'll be there sometimes to study with Aidan/Chan. :) And I really really enjoy working there. :)

And I met P which is like the worst thing ever. HAHA kidding. He thought me how to be serious at times( which is really hard for me ). It's a torture to be serious at times I swear cause I'm the kinda girl that, laughs at almost everything? I can even laugh when P sneezes. HAHAHA. "Irritating or what sia this Qy" You tmust be saying this right? Hahhaa. He taught me loads of stuffs, he wants to be my fashion advisor too LOL!

I've changed really much, I've learnt how to be serious, more forgiving, treasure friendship. Yeah I realised who are the true friends you know? :) Glad that I did too. Heheh.

K I'm gonna stop here, what a long post! Hahhaa.
This year I'm gonna
1) Hit 50!
2) Earn more bucks.
3) Get my car license
4) Study real hard once I get into BZE
5) Forget bout those miserable stuffs
6) Ignore arrogant bitches.
7) Master that piano piece(been trying for 8 mths!)

K I'm off for now. I got a nut stuck in between my teeth now seebai.
P is rushing me to finish this post fasttttt. Hahahha byeeeeeee.