Life can't get any worse, I chose to walk this path. Although I really wanna turn back but I guess it's too late. It's better this way too? But I'm feeling shitty for the past 2 days..
Even while packing for the trip, the first 2 pieces of clothing i chose was his, the hoodie and the baseball tee.
I put it back after realising that I shouldn't be wearing it cause it doesn't belong to me anymore..
I'm starting to regret, and I know I mustn't.
I went all crazy and said things on impulse, it was all anger words, those in caps.
I guess I'm pms-ing cause it always visits me at the start of the month.
No point explaining anymore, idk why am I blogging bout this too.
I need to move on.

I won't be blogging till the end of next week I guess?
Genting on monday, I must have fun.

Q905! I'm gna miss all of you the next sem, awwww. :(

I'm all alone at home feeling so bored so I decided to update bout the busy busy week. :)

Anyway Cny was awesome :) All the usual angpao collecting, nonstop supplies of steamboat and cny goodies, and gambling!
Omg this year they taught me a new game called in between and it will really make your balls shrink at times.
Kian bet 260 one shot and OMG he got all of them! Damn lucky la.
I can't wait for next year's cny!

14th feb: First day of Cny was the usual places, Granny's then cousin's house to gamble. Then over to Gor poh's house and then back to cousin's house.
I gambled till 8 in the morning and Brother fetched me home. :)

15th feb: 2nd day of Cny was at Aunt's house, steam baot and gambling as usual and home.

16th feb: 3rd day was fun, and loved. Lims came to fetch us casue P came over first, headed to Aunt's house for lunch and gambling! I was really touched when he won 21 bucks and he passed 20 to me cause I was losing. Omg loveeeeee. Hahaha.

Went over to angpao river with the Lims @ Marina bay platform!
Was really hot but I felt nice cause hahahha hohohoh omg I'm a retard.
Dinner was @ tm, teppenyaki! Awesome food. :)
Then headed over to Rach's for gambling again! Hahhaha.
Kian came over, P, his friend and us headed to his house to gamble till morning.
Then heheh stayover. I had a hard time sleeping beside a smelly armpit lor! HAHAHA kidding! It was nice. :)

17th feb: Woke up and went to FH for lunch and sayonara. :(
Then met up again at night with Chan to study, then Shaakir came to meet us and help me pierceeee, wasn't pain but it hurt for a week! It's alright now anyway. :) Thanks!
HSMH after that. :)

18th feb: Met up to study with P and Chan as usual. Lepak @ Ep at ngiht and some stuffs happened. Worst night ever. :( Lol what a happening week uh! Thanks for being there btw, i love you manymanymany. Like mouse and cheese rmbr? Hahahha.
HSMH again after that!. :)

19th feb: EP for lunch, saw Jack! Then headed to school to study, cleared most of our doubts with Mr Lok, maths suck balls, lol.
Went back home to change, P was hiding below my block, lol mad cuteeee.
Went over Temasek CC for dinner with Lims and the prawn boss. Lol he's really good at eating prawns so that's what I named him. :)
Went over to Downtown for chalet, met up with Malcolm & Jerry.
Left after awhile and Uncle met up with me at E!hub and he treat me moooveeee(movie), Soldiers! :)
Mad nice and funny. :) Home-d @ 3!

20th feb: Work full today! The hougang as usual, nothing much. :)

The following week was mugging and exams! Finally over heh damn happy.

Kbox with classmates after exam! Anders Ky, Joel & Sherm! Jack was working there, hahah.

Went for the buffet one, SO MUCH FOOD. -.-

It was really fun hahahaha. :)

K I'm gonna go out soon after I'm done with the post for the other blog :) P just cut his hair for me! Like finally, haha I'm smiling like a retard man. I feel so loved all of a sudden. :D
Bye people!

I love being busy, studying and cny and those time spent with P and you know who! :)
It has been a busy week! Every single day is soso packed.
E Maths paper tomorrow, exams will be ending on the wed and I'll blog bout everything alright! :)
Good luck to those having exams tomorrow.
Qy loves everyone manymany. Hahahah :)

Relatives over @ my house for reunion dinner. :)
Kaili is beside me using her phone to msn me and disturb me. -.-

Exams in a week, I'm dead.
Idk any shits bout anything. Gonna chiong from next Wed onwards.

Yesterday the day before was fun & nice. :)
Whole class dressed up for school on Thursday as it'll be the last day we will be together as a class.
Took pictures and played games. Was really really fun. I'll miss Q905 like madddddd.

I went out with Lims brother yesterday, hahahha Aidan & Caden!
Went town and Bugis. :)
Caden disturb me like free one. -.- But it was fun anyway, hahaha.
Lunch & dinner was @ market but it was nice. I felt soso nice. :)

Btw don't ask me bout it anymore, my life is complicated now.
I don't know what am I doing, I just followed my heart thats all.
I hope things will turn out right. :)

K I'm going off for dinner. Byeeeee :)

Stayed in school till late ytd agan, damn scary.
Joel came running back to me when I acted that I was pissed and walked away, but he told me he was acting I was acting too. Lol. It was funny anyway. HAHA
Was talking bout those ghostly encounters and I became damn timid.
Wanna go to the toilet but no girls around, i went in with Anders & Joel instead.
They were damn afraid that I'll run out of the cubicle cause they were peeing. LOL!

Went for football@ cable tv & meet momo and homeeeeee.

Today was fun, last leason of lab.
Jo said he will stop disturbing me from today onwards.
He will break this promise, for sure. Lol

Went Funan with Diana and Rach to look for Kelven.
Pizzahut after that, mad fun lol!
Then went for another interview, Diana is working there tmr!
Then had talks with Kelven, haha he's forever that friendly and nice. :)
Our job is confirmed yay. But not sure what brand yet, most probably Samsung. :)

Went Bugis for shopping after that, omg everything is soso cheap. -_-
Spend quit an amount and Diana kept on asking me to stoppppppp. Lol.
Home after that. :)

Dogs jio-ed me for k tmr but I'm having a bad sorethroat, they don't believe me. :(

I'm painting the door for cny! Hahaha.
Reunion dinner over @ cousin's house tmr. Yay. :)

I'm talking to the dogs while typing this, wall of text for them! Hahaha.
I spent today really happily, I was laughing and all, Anders forced me to eat and promised to bring me to gym soon! Hahaha.

Jap was fun, Jk and Luqman are awesomeee teammates, I had loads of fun during the whole procedure. :) They paid for everything, props and stuff, they did all the printing. Omg gentlemens. :)

Stayed in school and did stuffs, went outside 8th floor and had heart to heart talks with Anders and Joel. View of the sky was really nice. Spend a long time chatting, and laughing real hard, ahaha. :) I find Ky's shyness really cute, and he's really afraid of ghost, we stayed till late and the lights off and on itself and all of us went o.o hahah and when Wk walked out of the lift, Ky's face was epic. I find Wk irritating but really nice, I find Anders a really nice friend to confide to, and Joel was disturbing me like how he used to. :) I was just acting I'm not pissed, you should know it. :) I found out so much things bout them today, and how they felt bout it and the way they treat me and all. I'm like the same old girl mixing around with a whole bunch of guys again, I told them how I wish I was a guy and I can play with them. Cause there's some stuffs I can't do cause I'm a girl!
Pastamania after school, they had pizza marathon, damn funny. Joel's stomach HAHAHA. We poked each other's stomach lol, mine's softest. Tooo much water intake. -_- Wk got 6 meatballs. Lollll.

Met up with Rach and Nigel! And went lepak with his friends, for just half an hour? I made fun of the 2 guys which I don't even know, calling hima wimp and all HAHA damn funny and that girl which I don't even know her name, we kept on talking bout bitches hahaha. We click damn fast idk why! Took the last train home, saw Diana at Simei mrt and gave her a quick hug before she board the train. Smile my dear. :)

Btw I made a desicion that I regretted but now I'm alright.
The only thing I regretted is that if I didn't say that out of anger, he won't be fagging now.
But he's listening to his friends, ha that proves how unimportant I am, shouldn't be so stupid and gave so much. Lesson learnt!

Chan told me his point of view from a guy and telling me what guys will do and all. And treating me bubble tea when he's so tight in cash. Accompanying me to work and all just because I was crying and I called him. Thanks.

Diana & Rach being always there for me, they're always just a cell away, and they came to stayover at during the most horrible Sunday night just to accompany me. That night was the first night I managed to finish a mega McSpicy, thanks for the treat to cheer me up and make me eatttt, haha. Thanks for texting and calling me everyday asking whether I'm alright and asking me to stay strong, I love you girls alot.
Jesslyn for being there too, just a call and 15 minutes later she's at my house! Lol.

I stopped working at FH for this week, but I'm gonna go back next week or after my exams cause Chan wants me to. It's stupid to quit cause of that reason. I shouldn't run away from it, I should face it and try to overcome it.

I'm smiling as I'm typing this, I've woke up. Finally!
I can't believe I gave down all my pride and all for this and get soft hearted with a peck on my forehead and those tickles.
Sorry Rach for hanging your call and ignoring you for that, I was too stubborn.

It's better to be what I am now, I deserve better.
It's a lesson learnt, I've lost the will to trust anyway, I've to learn how to trust again.
Being all alone is better than being in the wrong r/s.

I love my friends, really really much, the way they keep telling me funny stuffs to keep me laughing so my mind will be off that shitz, touched my heart.
And the one who said 'oh' after i typed a long text. LOL cannot stand that idiot.

Sorry for neglecting all of you guys for the last 4 months.
All of them wants me to change back to the noisy girl, Rach, Diana, Chan, Joel, Anders and so on.
I will, give me a week's time. :)
Thanks for everything alright, and Genting trip on March, I can't wait, confirm it soon pleaseeee hahaha.

"You only find a few people in this world, a few people who will tell you they love you and mean it with all of their heart. Don’t forget those people who stood by you through it all. Those special few that were there for you until the end."

Remember this qy, you have friends with you.
I'm gonna concentrate on my studies, it's the most important thing now cause I know nuts bout everything and it's 3 weeks to exams. I need to be hardworking! I wanna score all A. LOL idiot stop laughing!

I'm gonna hug barney back to sleep, I'm gonna find the old me back, I'm gonna have a good sleep tonight cause I received so much good night messages today.
I don't want anymore mind fucking anymore thanks.
If theres anything for me to regret now, it's not the phone calls, sweet texts and all. It's the friendship we had before and how it felt nice when you were there for me.
I'll try to be nice and all, but if I can't then I'm sorry, I don't like to be fake. :)
You must overcome this and taking everything off your heart, be firm and stay strong qy.