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Met up with Jesslyn yesterday to study, finallyyyyyyyy!
Went library to study, Aidan, Chan & Vanessa came after that.
Went to have LJS again. (Y)(Y) :D

Mo came to fetch Aidan, Chan and me to Eastpoint to study.
Arcade afterwards and then they came to my house to study again.
Study plan failed again, I didn't learn anything today. -.-

School to study with Aidan and Aisha today.
Aisha taught us alot of stuffs. Thanks! :)
Jo came to join us afterwards.
Learnt alot of things today. :) Gonna clear more doubts tmr!

Bad sore throat for the past few days.
Too heaty. :/ Mum thought I smoke cause of my breath lol wtf. -.-

Current mood: _l_
I feel like killing people now. No I just wanna kill you. No the both of you.

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Met up with Aidan and went to school.
Saw Jesslyn and Vanessa omg miss them so so much!

Library to study with Adrian, Kimseng & Songhan.
Failed again, I only did one question and spent the rest of the time talking and laughing. :)

Left with Aidan to Eastpoint for dinner @ LJS and I saw Jesslyn and Vanessa again! Haha.
Met up with Chan after his physics lesson lol! and studied for awhile.
Seriously awhile. I just wrote Question (8) on my book and we left already. Lol!
Went back home to put stuffs and went down to meet Aidan and Chan again.
Went to Chan's friend's house and slack.
They're fucking crazy people I was like o.o omfgzz @ what they're doing to themselves.
One of them black out and it was very funny, he just stone there and stared into space hahah!

Chan's house after that and homeeeee. :)
12am already! 7th month woooo. Hahhaa.

Have to study hard, really have to.
Need to make my life more useful to make me happy.
Walked pass that route again, memories flew back like superheros. -.-
Need to get this shitz out of my mind asap.
3 years already omg Qy please do something about it!

Studying tmrw with awesome people.
Aidan Anders Chan etc. :D
Baiiiiiiiix! :)

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Met up with Aidan, Rafiq & Wilson at Central on Sunday.
Talked to Rafiq and screamed a him cause he kept on disturbing me. Sorry lol. -.-
Aidan kept on chasing Rafiq with a cockroach and Rafiq ran like a dog.
Wilson and I laughed like mad. Lol!
Little things like this made my day up. Luv them. :)

School to study with Aidan, Anders and Chan.
Ended up using Chan's laptop instead. :)
LJS @ East point after that.
That place reminds me of Thian layleng, hahaha. :)
Rafiq & Zaf came after that!
Talking to them is damn fun. Heh.

They walked me home and certain things happened after that which made me cried when I went back home.
I hope I'll make the right decision when the time comes.
But now I need to study first! This is much more important.

I thought study week lasts for 2 weeks but nooo it's only 1. Nabei to the max. -.-
I can't study alone, need to have someone beside me to keep me focused. Lol.

Gonna study with Adrian, Kimseng & Songhan tomorrow! :)
Have to wake up early, oh goddddd. :(

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Happy birthday Wanyan, went to her bbq yesterday.
Played games and kena forfeit, my face was filled with loads of charcoal.
But it was fun and I really enjoyed myself. :)

Need to study need to study need to study like nowwwwwwww.
Life's really screwed up now. DAMN SCREWED.

I'm doing things that I didn't want to.
I'm living a life I've never wanted to.
What's wrong with me?

I wanna turn back now but I can't.
Everything won't change back to how it used to be anymore.

I'm tired, really tired.
I always don't get the things I want.
You know the feeling when you want something really badly for soooooooo long and you just can't get it?
That feeling really sucks.
I wanna be immune to everything. That's when I won't feel any pain to whatever shitz that falls upon me.
Gonna burst soon, I feel like disappearing from everything and just live alone without having to worry for any shit now.
I'm being fucked. _l_

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Today was worst than yesterday, sigh.
I don't understand why I really don't.
I'm ready to bomb anytime now. :/

I'm trying to get over something which seems impossible for me to.
But I'm trying, trying real hard.
I AM USELESS DAMN FUCKING USELESS.
I kept on telling myself I must be strong but I just kept on crying to sleep over and over again.
Trying to put up a strong front in front of your mates isn't easy.
I'm tired of everything. Real tired..

I even failed my Maths I fucking failed my maths I FAILED MY MATHS.
OF ALL BUT MY BEST SUBJECT SINCE PRIMARY 1. MATHS.
Maybe I should just stay calm and not react to everything.
Not even laughing, just be like a typical quiet girl and do well in my studies.

I really need a listening ear one. A particular one.
Which will only say 'then what you want me to do/don't think too much la'.
These 2 sentences were enough cause I know at least that person's there for me when I need someone. But now, the situation is different..
I'm hoping for everything to go back to the past. Sigh.

Anyway thanks bro for listening to all those stuffs. Love you. :)