:'(

On my bed now but I can't get to sleep. :/

I need a listening ear very badly now but everyone seems to be busy. Sigh.. So here I am rantingggg.

I'm in a damn foul mood now. Fucking lots of shits piling up on me recently. Loved ones are there for me, but I only pour out my stuffs when I really really need a listening ear. I tell a little here & there but no one knows every single thing that's happening around me in details. Yes I know that those problems are inevitable but I just, kinda wish my life was better? Sometimes I really wanna voice out whatever I'm unhappy about.. But I guess in life, certain things have to be kept shut & there's always a reason behind it. Voicing out doesn't always solve the problem. Vice versa, it'll make it turn out nasty instead. I dare not take the risk cause I love those people that's causing all these shitty feelings on me. I'll just tolerate & wait for them to change? Since nothing I do will help in any way. Till the point where I can't take it anymore, that's when I voice out. But I don't think I'll tolerate really long cause I always do things that will destroy my body when I'm feeling down which I HATE alot but can't seem to stop it. Fuck this habit. Qiuyun, tolerate. Yeah that should be what I'm gonna do. For now, my mouth's shut.

People if you're reading this, I just need to rant & let part of it out to feel better that's all. So don't ask me what's happening alright? I don't wanna breakdown infront of you. Thanks. :'(

editedit!

Time check, 1.48.
The thing I like about me is that I get over stuffs quite quickly & when I'm with awesome people I'll be happy happy me! Hate night times it always turns out bad! I'm feeling much better after ranting out now. :)

TMRW I ISH GONNA SING MY LUNGS OUT. I'm gonna keep this matter home & get out of the house happily cause I'll get to see someone that can give me the greatest hug that will let me feel at ease for that minute. :>

& I'M SO BORED & FREE I'M GONNA CREATE TUMBLR NAO HEHEHE.